I just finished filming and editing a new video for my YouTube channel and while I wait for it to finish rendering so I can polish it off with some audio and photos, I thought I would crack open a can of Diet Coke (aka my current naughty poison of choice) and spend a little time with you guys.
I've been stressing lately. I'm finding it hard to sleep more than three hours per night, and with my nephew soon to be born, now is NOT the time to be missing sleep because once he's here it's gonna be a noisy apartment. Planning for the move and also planning a career change has left me feeling a little nervous. I'm taking a huge step, albeit one I've taken a couple times before, but that's always a little nerve-wracking for me. But at the same time I'm also SO EXCITED. Making videos brings me a lot of joy and all the big plans I have for once I'm back in the city has me feeling some type of way. It's time to live. Time to try new things and get out there and see what comes into my life next.
I don't think it's that weird to start documenting your life at 30 years old. I think it's the time a person comes into their own (at least in my case, anyway) and why would you not want to watch that transformation happen? I want to push myself to do more and be more and having a video time capsule of that process and those thoughts is REALLY appealing to me. Maybe it's part of that whole wanting to be remembered when I'm gone thing. Not that I'm planning to kick off anytime soon, but it's nice to think there will be something tangible left behind when I cross that rainbow bridge. Something my friends and family can look back on. Some would call that morbid, but I prefer to think of it as a lovely future gift. They can look back and watch me cursing.
Life is evolution. I don't know who I'm becoming yet but so far I'm happy with what I see.